Journey to 40 Entry 5

“You do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away” (James 4:14).

I was recently watching a movie on Netflix called Long Story Short, essentially (without giving too many spoilers away) a man begins to experience life in a sped up manner. What is a few hours for him is years for those around him. He misses out on important milestones and even experiences a heartbreaking loss. Before the alteration of his life, he procrastinated on every single moment of his life. Worrying that it just wasn’t the right time. I’ve been guilty of this sentiment, more times than I would like to admit.

When COVID first hit, I was amazed at how many things I had taken for granted-a simple hug, talking to someone and seeing their full-face, eating around strangers at a restaurant. I promised myself I would make the most out of life…and then life started to settle down a bit. Those lofty dreams-seemed even more lofty, almost a bit irresponsible. Fear settled in on my couch and I passed her a blanket to sleepover.

Been there?

It’s so easy to feel the exuberant high of starting to make a change in your life…and then life happens and you get sidetracked. A day turns in to weeks, which turns into months and now we are two years post COVID exposure and life is almost back to the new normal. We know we are forever changed by the experience, but in what ways?.

Vannorsdall, states that depression and anxiety are on the rise and ebb and flow with rising and falling COVID infection rates. As much as we want to just get back to normal we can’t. As much as we want to act like we are grabbing life by the horns many of us have settled back to the quiet stability of just being.

While I advocate for self-care, I also advocate for self-awareness. Pay attention to your season, is this truly a season of rest or is this a season to move forward with the deferred dream. Only you know that answer.

Write out your thoughts and feelings of where you are and where you want to be. Take small intentional steps to move forward. Be honesty about how you’re feeling during the process.

Pivot with purpose,


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